Modern Miracles

I will admit, the last year has taken me to my knees and has absolutely sent me to a point of I had to chose to either hand everything over to my Savior or try to take this trial and "fix" things myself. It has been a process learning to 100% hand over my health, health issues, money problems, job pressures, mothering responsibilities, as well as many church assignments and those everyday duties of being a mom and wife all over to my Savior. I learned that if I gave him 90% and tried to hold control over 10%, things failed. I couldn't juggle everything that needed to be done, even when I was only trying to accomplish 10% of it and trusting the Lord on the other 90%. It didn't work.

The last couple of weeks, I have found myself relying on my Savior even more, trusting Him completely and letting Him take ALL the pieces, not just a select few, and not even me trying to control or have dominion over a few areas. I had to literally lay it ALL at His feet and repent for me trying to control or force things to turn out the way I wanted or thought they should be handled.

In doing so, we have received so many blessings and even miracles in our lives. I stand as a witness that our Savior can do more with our lives than we can. He can take what little we have to offer and make it into more than enough. He blesses us to a far greater capacity and gives us what we NEED, not necessarily what the desires of the heart are.

Grateful doesn't even begin to describe what He has done for our family. I will be eternally humbled and appreciative of the miracles that He has chosen to bring forth in our family at this time in our lives.

The song, "I Stand All Amazed" keeps repeating in my head. The words are my song to my Savior.

1. I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me,
Confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me.
I tremble to know that for me he was crucified,
That for me, a sinner, he suffered, he bled and died.

[Chorus]
Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me
Enough to die for me!
Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me!

2. I marvel that he would descend from his throne divine
To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine,
That he should extend his great love unto such as I,
Sufficient to own, to redeem, and to justify.

3. I think of his hands pierced and bleeding to pay the debt!
Such mercy, such love and devotion can I forget?
No, no, I will praise and adore at the mercy seat,
Until at the glorified throne I kneel at his feet

And, although, this has definitely been a struggle, a challenge, the trial of my life, with Him beside me and ONLY because He is standing beside me, I am continuing to hold on, fight, and continue to try and walk the path that ha been set before me. His love is what keeps me going.