Friday, August 21, 2015

Spoiled rotten

Seriously!!!!!  How lucky am I???!!! 

My husband. My absolutely selfless husband rubs my feet nightly. Oh and did I mention that I awake every morning to a diet coke by my bed. Oh and he gently wakes me with my meds and an egg, over easy on toast and my vitamins on a plate. And he does everything I need or could ask for or even drem of. 

I seriously hit the jackpot. 

And young girls out there. Watch out. He is training Hayden to be just like him. My son, at only 13 years old, will put a blanket over me if I fall asleep and gently kiss my head. If I am upset, he asks what h can do for me. He makes me lunch. He is the man when Thomas is gone and takes his responsible role. If I try to clean at all, he tells me to go lay down, I got this. 

Seriously. Some people play slots or gamble and hit the jackpot. We may not have oodles of money but we have one another and I wouldn't trade my jackpot for all the money in the world. These two make me the luckiest person alive. I love you Thomas and Hayden.  

Birthday week

I know it seems as if I am spoiled rotten and have a week long celebration. Ok. I am spoiled rotten by family and friends. They treat me wonderful. But, it is partly because of my limitations and only being able to go an hour or so a day, so I get to drag it out which is really kind of fun. Lucky me. 

My birthday

My two boys treated me like a queen, as they do every day of my life. 

As they walked in the room to bring me breakfast in bed, I smiled as the song, "These are the special times" went thru my head. "The special times are the times I share with you. These tender moments when Heaven is so close. These are the special times. The precious times. The tender times. The ones we hold in our hearts forever. The special times are the times are the times I share with you." 

My guys are simply amazing. They love me and cherish me. They respect me and honor and revere me. The treat me with the upmost kindness and love. They spoil me rotten. I love them and how much they give their all to make me feel like their queen. 

Of course, on my birthday, they did not disappoint. Somehow. Someway. They always seem to outdo themselves. 

They showered me with love and a new sweat outfit. Oh how they know me. They bought me an adult coloring book and new colored pencils so I could practice art with Hayden. I loved it. 

Then Hayden found out that there are birthday freebies. So we went and collected some. Free 4 muffins at Mimi's Cafe, free ice cream, free meals. Our plan was to go to lunch but our adventure was cut short as I started into multiple seizures. Hayden took it all in stride as Thomas took us home and gave me a priesthood blessing. I spent the entire rest of the day sleeping. 

I missed so many family and friends that stopped by with cards and cookies and flowers and. Gifts. Unfortunately, I slept thru it all. But was so grateful for all those that remembered me and lifted my spirits. 

Thomas and Hayden had planned to take me to Cracker Barrel for dinner and to jesterz comedy club for my,birthday night. Thomas awoke me moments before we would have to leave and asked if I wanted to attempt it. I was nervous and felt awful but thought I needed to try for Hayden's sake. 

I'm so glad I took pain pills and attempted to go. We ate chicken and dumplins for dinner and headed next door to the comedy club, where Thomas is friends with the owner. It is a family friendly pg show. Hayden laughed his heart out. He asked if we could go every Saturday. I think it's funny how much he loved it. I had fun sitting and listening to Hayden laugh. 

I was sandwiched and the cream filling between the two people who love me the most in this world. Thomas had his arm around me and holding my right hand. Hayden nestled in and was holding my,left hand. I felt so loved. I don't remember the comedians or stand up comedies done that night. But I will never forget my feeling. Of love. And how much these two protect and love and cherish me. My heart swelled with gratitude for these two and the joy they bring to my,life. 

My heart then swelled with love for the life I've been given. I felt so loved. 

I struggled out to the car and collapsed. I don't rememeber anything until the next day. I slept 22 out of 24 hours. But it was so worth it. I'm so so blessed to be Thomas' wife and. Hayden's mom. I'm so grateful for another year to spend with them. That is my greatest gift and I am forever grateful. 

Here's to 45. My wish....Make it to 46. 

Brazilian barbecue

Josh, Jake and I all have birthdays within a couple of weeks of one another. My dad usually takes us out to eat for our birthdays. This year he decided to take the three of us and our spouses together. He took us to a Brazilian BBQ restaurant. 

I was so worried I wouldn't be able to make it. I have been struggling and hurting do badly. Jack was sweet and showed up to pick me up. Too bad Suzi had already dropped me off at his house. I rode with my brothers to the restaurant. Thomas and my dad met us there. I had to take meds in order to even go. Restaurants are so hard because of my legs getting clots or severe pain or pressure. 

However this restaurant was fancy shmancy. People walked around cutting off all kinds of meat on your plate. My favorite was the parmeasesn crusted pork. Delicious. And the best tasting filet mignon. Almon with all the sides. Then they brought out 3 huge desserts for me and Josh and Jake. Tree leche cake was delicious and my first time having it. 

I enjoyed being with my dad and brothers, their wives and Thomas. By the time with left, I could hardly walk out. I crashed and slept the entire time in the car on the way home. 

It os so rare that Thomas and I go out to dinner. I think the last time was at the beach and prior to that was with Jodi and Troy months and months ago. It was a treat to go out. So much fun. 

I'm grateful for these special moments in my life. I feel wrapped in love. That is the greatest feeling ever. 

Thursday, August 20, 2015

My sister

Seriously. Why do I never take pictures? I've gotten to be such a slacker. 

Regardless. Jodi asked what I wanted for my birthday. All I ever want is time. I love spending time with her. My sweet sister and niece and nephews came over and spent the night and hung out the following day. I loved seeing and talking with my sister. 

We don't have to do anything. Just sitting on the bed or couch talking and laughing are some of my fondest moments. There is something in life about a sister. Someone that loves you and all your imperfections. No judging or unrealistic expectations simply loving me for who I am. It's the greatest gift. I can be me. Whether that is me on my best days of actually,being able to leave the house for a short activity or whether it is in a hospital bed as she comforts me or just hanging out at home, being together is simply enough. 

Jodi took me to one of my favorites, apple dumpling restaurant for breakfast. So fun to just sit and talk and catch up. It was heavenly. Later Lisa came and visited with us and the kids. 

I'm grateful for the world's greatest sister. I am grateful for her sweet children. I love and cherish her kids as if they were my own. 

As she left, I wish she could have stayed forever. But I was so grateful for the time I got to spend with her. She gives me the strength and courage to keep fighting. She helps me to reach deep down and find an inner strength only reachable by my Savior. 

As a child, I rememeber wanting gifts. Today, gifts of time and service and love are so much nearer and dearer to my heart. Just a encouraging word, a hug, a sincere compliment, a hand to hold when I can't do it and an understanding ear and reassuring word mean the most. Knowing that I truly matter mean the most. Jodi is this person to me. She knows how to lift my,spirit and help me find the inner strength to keep going. She reassures me that I am enough. That my efforts, no matter how little, matter. That my life, even as restricted and limited as it is, still matters. That I am still valuable. That I am still needed, wanted, valued and loved. 

Jodi(and so many others) gave me the greatest gift this year. The gift of unconditional love. Of sacrifice. Kindness. Gentleness. Service. And reassured me that in my own way, that I still make a difference and have value. That is am still wanted here. 

I'm grateful for a selfless sister that is full of Christlike love. I may be the older sister but she sure is the example. I love you, Jodi. You will never know how much your visit meant to me. 

Create your own donut

Suzi took Lisa and I to the fractured prune to create our own donut for our birthday. So yummy. So fun. Seriously a "create your own donut bar". Yummy. Peppermint patty, key lime pie, Black Forest, lemonade, churro, raspberry chocolate and death by chocolate. Simply delicious. 

Suzi spoiled us rotten. Happy feet for a reflexology massage. Lunch at Chilis and then donuts. 

I loved getting a massage. It helped ease the pain so I could venture out for a little bit. Such a blessing. Thanks suzi. I had a wonderful time. 

Cooking classes

One of the many great reasons I love that Hayden is homeschooled. Cooking classes with Grandma Joyce every Wednesday. 

Hayden was so excited to start as he said, "man, I would love to learn to cook as well as grandma someday. This is going to be a wonderful class." 

I love listening to the laughter as Hayden talks grandma's ear off. They talk and tell stories. I listen to Joyce teach Hayden about her childhood and things she did with Thomas. I love that his confidence in the kitchen is improving. He is learning science, reading and following directions, how to modify recipes, how to plan a meal, a week's worth of meals, how to figure out a grocery list based on needs for a week not just a meal and how to plan meals to save the most money. He is learning to start and take inventory of refrigerator items, especially those that need to be eaten right away. Then do that for,the pantry and freezer. Then look at the ads to see what is on sale and based on what is in stock at our home and the sales ads, determine healthy and economical meals. 

Best of all, do you how nice it is to eat a home cooked meal, made with love by grandma and my son. Absolutely delicious. 

Once he starts mastering baking goods, simple meals, crockpot meals, oven and stove cooking, I am ready to have someone teach Hayden to can. We definitely need to can some chicken. 

I'm so grateful for all those that are apart of our village in teaching and caring for us and Hayden. We are so lucky. 

And can can I tell you that chicken and biscuits last week and pork chops and mashed potatoes, corn on the cob and cheesecake this week. I will absolutely love Wednesdays.