Life is funny thing.
Somedays you are up and feel like the clouds are within reach. The next, it feels like the literal bowels of hell have risen together to pull you down to its far reaching depths. No wonder life has been compared to roller coasters, ferris wheels, merry-go-rounds, and every other type of crazy ride and adventure.
Some days seem to fly by with the speed of light. Others drag slowly on, time ticking by so slowly.
Which ever road we walk. Whether on a speeding bullet hanging on trying to catch a deep breath or feeling that time has stopped to quit ticking, life hands us our own unique set of trials and challenges to face.
I have spent most of my life wishing time would slow down, trying to race faster and faster to do more, accomplish my lists, go at a faster speed and feeling like I needed to do it all. Lately, my life is the complete opposite. Most days the only thing I accomplish is that I was sucessfully able to keep breathing.
We all face challenges. Hardships. Overwhelming trials. Obstacles that require more strength than we feel we can muster.
Beng sick has provided me with an unique opportunity this past year. I have been blessed to have so many friends come into my home. We sit. We talk. My friends take a moment out of their busy lives to visit with me. As we sit and talk, we share stories. We talk of the unique set of challenges and opportunities that we have been given. We laugh at the funny moments, find joy in conquering the obstacles, shed tears when struggling to find answers and are humbled by the gifts and blessings of our Savior.
I am so grateful for each friend that gives up a portion of their busy day to just sit with me. It is a break from the monotony of my days. Such a special treat for me to have friends come share their lives with me.
As each friend has spent time talking with me on the couch, there is one common thread, regardless of individual circumstances. Everyone is really trying to do their best in life. Trying to love others, serve, provide for the needs of their families and loved ones whether financially, emotionally, physically or spiritually. These people are good. Their hearts are in the right place. Each one trying to do what is right.
The other common thread that is shared amongst most of those that walk through my doors, is that they do not think they are doing enough, loving enough, serving enough, giving enough and living up to what they should be doing. That breaks my heart. These are incredibly kind and amazing people. They are giving their all each and every day. They are doing their best. They make mistakes, as every one of us does, but their hearts are in the right place.
My wish for you, my dear friends and loved ones, be more gentle with yourselves. Treat yourself as kind as you are to your friends. Give yourselves the benefit of the doubt. Know that although your plans don't always turn out the way you intended, you tried. At times, we all fall short of our goals. We all think we should do more, be better, try harder.
The crazy thing is.... we are doing enough. Each of my dear friends that have called, dropped by, sent notes, prayed for me and shared the gift of the remarkable you, there is one thing I want you to know.
You ARE Enough. You Do Enough. You are simply AMAZING! In my eyes. And more importantly, in the Savior's eyes.
Thank you for sharing a part of your busy lives with me. You bring so much joy to my world. You lift my spirits. You give me hope. You help me find the courage to keep fighting for life. You help me to feel my Savior and His undying love for each of us.
Thank you for imparting to me one of the most precious gifts we have been given in this life...time.