I am so relieved that the beach is bringing cooler temperatures and less problems. The seizures and episodes have decreased drastically over here. I guess the swelling in my brain is decreasing with the cooler temperatures.
A couple of weeks back, I had another neurologist appointment. My mastoid bone and the brain area right above it is infected, swollen and so inflamed that it is causing problems. The infection is so rampant that it has destroyed part of my skull bone and is causing inflammation. Scar tissue is also accumulating into a mass, just inside the brain. Not good. At least they have identified part of where the problems are coming.
Options in the medical world are frightening, at best. Remove the infection and scar tissue. The complications and outcomes are not pleasant. Although this neurologist knew little about it and only knew to send me to another specialist.
As I was sitting in the office being told the news, my heart was overcome in peace. I was prompted to go to the all natural doctors for guidance and treatment. I am working closely with them on what to do next.
I was so scared to come to Cali. Although the doctors said it would be so beneficial in the swelling decreasing, I just wasn't sure. Before I left, my sweet husband offered a priesthood blessing. I was given beautiful promises. Most of all, I was reassured that the beach, with my family, was where I needed to be for healing.
As I sit and watch most of the excitement down below my balcony, I am filled with gratitude that I am here.
Gratitude that I get to be in this beautiful weather. Gratitude for this amazing experience and vacation. Gratitude that I survived this past year and am alive to enjoy this sweet vacation with those I love. Gratitude swells in my heart for the love I have for my Father in Heaven and older brother Jesus Christ. Without their love, protection, mercy and miracles, I would not be here to experience this great vacation with my family.
Sitting on the beach, overlooking the vast ocean, I am reminded of the love my Father in Heaven and Savior have for me. I am so insignificant in the grand scheme of things. The world is so vast, so big, with so many of my brothers and sisters walking this earth. Millions more that have come before and millions that are yet to have their time on earth. But, my Savior knows me. Watches out for me. Protects me. And blesses me and those I love. I matter to him. It is such a humbling and overwhelming feeling. The creator of this beautiful ocean knows and loves me. Each day he blesses me, watches out for me and loves me. I am in awe at his love for me. Overwhelmingly wonderful!
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